Posted by Berberis on January 10, 2006, at 7:16:58
In reply to Re: Noncompliance » Berberis, posted by Racer on January 9, 2006, at 17:03:29
> First of all, treating YOUR mental illness doesn't really concern whether or not he's fed up with you. It's not about him, it's about you.
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> Then again, it does sound as though YOU'RE rather fed up with yourself...EXTREMELY fed up with myself.
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> You're probably right that you're sabotaging yourself, and that you need to stop. The best advice I can offer is to see a therapist about just this issue. Of course, most of us can do better with a combination of therapy and meds, than either alone, so maybe a therapist is a good idea anyway? Regardless, do see someone to figure out why you do this, and how to stop.
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Been in therapy for a few years now. This topic has never been discussed, probably because I'm embarrassed to admit I'm purposely making things worse for myself constantly. I truly DO NOT want to be miserable! I see my T next week; will print out this thread and discuss with her.> If you know that you're doing well on a particular dose of a particular med, what is it that makes you change it? Do you get antsy because you're not having enough drama?
That thought has crossed my mind, but I don't like to consider it too seriously.
> Or are you having trouble with side effects that bother you?
Yes, almost always.
> Or do you not think that you need the meds?
I often believe I don't really need the meds because I'm not mentally ill.
> What starts you off on changing things?
I either feel fine and tell myself I don't need to take medication or I feel lousy and accuse the meds of not helping.
Thanks for making me think more about why I'm doing this, Racer.
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