Posted by Phillipa on November 16, 2005, at 21:56:16
In reply to Re: Lurkers Please Come Out and Regulars too About Med, posted by denise190466 on November 16, 2005, at 13:51:54
See I think aside from having panic attacks at age 22 I was and never have depressed. And my mood doesn't swing high or low so I don't want to get out of bed. At age 22 I was given 5mg of valium three times a day with meprobomated 450mg. I had a problem baby at the time who cried 24hours a day and had to keep being hospitalizded. When she was around 4 i found Aerobic Dance and my life changed. I found something I loved to do and was good at became an instructor. I stopped the meprobomate. and continued the valium. And gradually cut down on it too. Til I was only taking it at night. And I admitt I drank beer at night. They didn't know the dangers of alchohol and meds at the time. So over the years I was switched from valium after completing nursing school and graduating magna cum laude, recepient of a lot of awards and scholarship for the last year. To ativan when it came out small dose which i even stopped and stopped drinking for a few months. To just being happy traveling out of bad marriage. Moved to VA Beach on my own and the psych doctor I saw there was a referral from the one I had in CT. He even worked in the same psychiatric hospital I did. And recommended me for a job at the jail he did parttime work in and so I did too. He even suggested that I only saw him to get my very low dose of now xanax. I took .l25mg of xanax at bedtime and was living alone. Married two other times in the interval.To meeting my current husband who was a pt for cocaine and alchohol abuse. I moved in with him , sold my house and said what the heck i marred and had three kids at age l8, 2l, and 27 and had an adolescent rebelliene long overdue. Drank a lot of beer and wine with him since he never stopped drinking. Married him and a week after that my thyroid went to hypothyroidism. And then the xanax and AD'd began. Vertigo, feeling wierd, more drinking, more xanax and l0mg of paxil first AD I'd ever taken. Was sick for 3months and then felt better. Wanted to help start the psychiatric unit in the hospital. So I had a reason to be happy when made a charge nurse on that unit. I was fine for around two years. Gave up paxil by chipping off parts of pill till none. Then my TSH went up to 22 and I was hospitalized for such high anxiety. They didn't know it was my thyroid till testing in psych hospital. So pdoc said hey lets try some other meds since your here. And that's where it all started. no AD'd have worked in 81/2yrs. And been on disability since then. Gone through menopause and chemistry changed. Now no AD seems to affect me at all . No feelings from them. I think I need to go back to work. Agoraphobia and fear of being alone and even getting up early are now part of my life. And the pdocs keep trying new meds that the pharmacitacal companies come out with. And it's getting expensive time consuming and I'm now much older without a lot of years left to work. So any answers to this thread are greatly appreciated. Yes I did try nortriptalline for only one day. But it was because I sensed meds were not the answer especially only sleeping. The only med I tried years ago that gave me energy and I felt good on was prozac 20mg but after 3 days it gave me back extreme anxiety attacks. The pdoc said to take it every three days it worked so dramatically for me. But in fear i said no. The question now is that on Dec 22 I will see a really good pdoc. So should I take meds or not? Fondly, Phillipa
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