Posted by badseed on February 13, 2005, at 19:19:50
Hi everyone
I am just writing with something that has been on my mind over the last few weeks. I am coming off topamax. In fact, this is my first day on nothing, i must confess i am a little nervous.
I went on topamax for epilepsy 3 months ago. I also am struggling with an eating disorder. (a fact i don't share with anyone)I have always been a moody person, I am a musician (not that that justifies anything) and a performer and I just have attributed it to my eccentricities; which i do not mind having. However, i do have some psychological issues and that is clear. Since going on the topamax it really helped with the bingeing and the purging although i felt drugged all the time and creatively dull and dead. I couldn't think much; and to my family's amazement, i was a very agreeable person. (because i was so doped and sleeping all the time) i took my pill and then would feel drunk and stumble around, then nap. i refuse to live like this. I went to see a psychiatrist while on the topamax who thinks i'm bipolar II. and i could agree with that. I was having 4 days of crazy eating and crazy thoughts and writing crazy ideas and non stop thinking and then 4 days 'normal and subdued' and good eating and sticking by my regime. However, as i have tapered down; these 'bipolar' tendencies are waning. I am being serious. I am always a thinker and always a little 'on the go' (was prescribed ritalin as a young teen - but i don't believe i had ADD and i never took it) but these crazy moods are (and most unwelcome) aquisition. I'm not sure if it is the drugs or what, i'm very confused - but as i get down, i have been absolutely fine - no huge changes like before. so i am beginning to wonder. does anyone think there could be a correlation between the two? because it says in the side effects that it can cause some kind of mood instability in some, i guess you never know and every drug you take is an experiment. ...
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