Posted by medhed on February 6, 2005, at 5:34:08
In reply to Re: OPIATES FOR DEPRESSION? » medhed, posted by lars1 on February 6, 2005, at 3:04:40
I am diagnosed:
Major Depressive-cycling/treatment resistant
OCD (currently under control)
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
ADD/Adult
Dual Diagnosis-- History of substance abuse (30yrs.)
Drugs that were prescribed for me:
(in the last 30yrs.)
Desoxyn, Dexedrine, Ritalin, Concerta,
Elavil, Nortryptoline, Imapramine,
Temazapam, Valium, Ativan, Klonapin,
Cloral Hydrate, Librium, Xanax,
Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil, Luvox,
(in the last 18mos.)
Welbutrin, Adderall, Abilify, Gabitril, Neurontin, Seroquel, Geodon, Strattera,
Effexor.I'm currently taking Welbutrin 300XR (for 6yrs.)and Effexor down from 300mgXR to 150mgXR. I like Welbutrin but I can't tell exactly what it's doing for me except that I don't experience side effects and that I would probally miss it if I discontinued it. Effexor brought me out of suicidal depression back in May 04 but I don't like the side effects. I'm numb in my extremities, profuse sweating (day and night), apathetic and tired, sexual... I tryed to quit cold turkey last month and had withdrawl symptoms. I'm not sure when I will try again, I am between pdocs now.
My 'substance abuse', what I call self medicating, at this time is periodical and controlled. There are substances that I now abstain from, alcohol, cocaine, street heroin, tobacco (I still use nicotine as a nicotrol nasal spray), research chemicals, and disassociatives.
I don't believe in total abstinence of ALL drugs due to my own experiences involving substance abuse treatment and 12 step groups. Drugs don't kill you, it's trying to find drugs- that's what kills you!Drugs I've used in the past 18mos. without a prescription or Dr.'s consent:
codiene, hydrocodone, oxycodone, morphine, hydromorphone, valium, ativan, xanax, soma.Illegal substances in the past 18mos:
LSD, mescaline, MMDA, LSA, marijuana/hashish, poppies- opium/tea, crystal meth.I know this is starting to look like it should be posted in substance use so let me get to the point. I want meds that I can rely on to make my life bearable on a daily basis AND I want to be able to augment these meds with the occasional vacation from life that opiates and benzos give me. Or the elation that I get from psycedelics. And the contentment of mind and body I get from cannabis. These are some of the things that make my life bearable, things I look foward to.
I've drank 2 cups of tea and I feel great! Too bad its so fleeting. I have enough experience to not get physically addicted but I do find myself looking foward to my little sessions on the weekend...
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