Posted by olysi79 on December 28, 2004, at 13:19:56
In reply to Re: For Linkadge, posted by linkadge on December 28, 2004, at 12:00:06
Hey Linkadge, I'm sorry things are so bad at this point. I'va had reactions to medications too. I firmly beleive that you will be ok. It's jsut finding the right doses at the right times. Keep on trying different things and whatnot. What are perceptual distortions? I've never heard of that before.
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> I've taken about 10 different benzo's to which I built complete tollerance to in 2-3 weeks. There is no point in me even initiating a benzo anymore. As well as atenolol which helped physical anxiety but worsened mental anxiety and panic.
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> Thats what docotors think though. YOu're just anxious. I honestly believe I am brain dammaged weather I am anxious or not. To me it is so clear. Do you tell a woman who has found a lump in her breast that she is probably just anxious and imagining things ??
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> I have perceptual distortions that are sound very simiar to what my friend is suffering post-LSD.
> They interfere with my ability to walk, speak clearly, think, see, body convulsions, twiches etc.
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> I'm really not an idiot, and I'm really not psycotic. There are only two possabilites. 1) I have a brain tumor. 2) these horrable, permanent side effects are a result of the medications I've been playing around with for the last 5 years.
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> I have to wait 4 months between psychiatrists visists. Regular docotors will only prescribe SSRI's and antipsychotics. The hospitals leave me more suicidal, to the point where I spent the whole day strolling the halls looking for a way to kill myself (ropse knives left around etc)
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> I just wish I were dead on an everyday basis.
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