Posted by rainy on October 27, 2004, at 19:15:15
In reply to Re: topamx mea culpa, posted by stresser on October 27, 2004, at 17:52:35
OK, I think we've got a couple of issues that some of us were sort of joking about last night right here. First, I think I said I was intimidated last year, but wasn't going to be any more. I don't feel intimidated now--hear me roar.
One of the problems I'm experiencing with this board is that I read a message really fast, and then jump right in to answer, so that I don't really "listen" to the person or persons to whom I'm responding. Perhaps, sometimes, we need to slow down. I know I do.
Of course the medications don't help, either, in keeping track of who said what when. Also, just between you and me, I'm not sure the System is all that easy to deal with. I really have babbled you, Stresser, at least three times without answer and who knows to what evil ends my e-mail address has gone.
Second, and this is probably venturing where angels think hard about, I sense a kind of unspoken contest on this board about who writes most or with the best story. Part of that, I think, comes from the fact that several of the people here have been writing for a long time and have developed a history and a friendship, so that when new people start, the culture of the board changes. It can be hard to barge in and to be barged in upon. You seem to have fouond it easier than others.
I gave up last year, but this year I don't want to because I enjoy the converesation. I am sacred of my meds, I'm feeling very reflective about nearing the end of what might be my productive life and afraid that medication and malady may keep me from doing anything about it.
I don't have anybody else to talk to about what to do about this--go back to school? change meds? stop meds? arrrgh!! besides my husband, who is rooting for the Redsox.
Control? I was joking about control, except that I want to hear and be heard on this board. As a person with bulimia at bay by Topamax, I have some things to say about control, but not on this board, unless it's with your permission, L. This is why I was hoping for e-mail. As a former medical social worker and other blah blah "careers" that I almost got to and quit, I know about confidentiality.
I sound grim, I know. I'm not. I don't know how to read your message again and then respond before sending this off. Usually i lose the whole message and have to start over and then forget etc.
It sounds like M is ready to live her own life. I'm glad Anne is 37.
Oh, by the way, the small group thing went fine, mostly, and I didn't have to say shut up. I did have to say "hold that thought" to a woman who later told me she had felt "set aside." Sorry about that.
I came home and had the shakes and I hadn't been drinking. Not one drop. I did pop .5 mg klonopin but I'm afraid of becoming addicted.
rainy
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