Posted by Mr.Scott on September 20, 2004, at 0:45:22
In reply to Bipolar Disorder Question. Can You Help Me?, posted by Mr.Scott on September 18, 2004, at 22:21:27
Thanks Ladies!
I feel like I'm in a boat that's taking on water and I'm constantly throwing buckets overboard trying to stay afloat.
I've been seeing the same doctor for 3+ years and every day it's a pinch of this or a pinch of that and there's 'a problem' with every med I take. If it doesn't cause my face to swell or my muscles to twitch, it will give me a feeling of drivenness to go and do something real stupid or make me feel comatose, agitated, whatever.
I wish I had an 'actual' community of people instead of a 'virtual' community of people to interact with (like AA for bipolars or something), because I feel like I'm on the borderline. I feel like I'm too normal to feel as sick as I do and yet I'm too sick to pretend like I'm normal all the time (it's so draining). It's like half my life is in the closet and I'm constantly trying to claw my way through life with a pocket full of pills. I need other nuts to talk to like alcoholics need other alcoholics!
Sorry for rambling. I deeply appreciate your responses to my post.
Scott
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