Posted by JenStar on August 20, 2004, at 16:02:04
In reply to Re: had a bad day today - Mrs. C, posted by captain on August 19, 2004, at 21:30:37
hi Captain & all,
I have been off Lex for about 3 weeks now; I weaned down from 10 mg/ to 5 to zero.I DO feel more anxious and my hubby notices, too -- he keeps making comments like "You need to go back on the Lexapro" whenever I get cranky. Although I think it's a bit unfair (hey, he's cranky too, sometimes, and I don't bug HIM to take meds!) I know that I'm more anxious than I was.
I find myself starting to worry more about my heart again (actually had the PVC's again!). I also am starting to think I have cancer again. I KNOW it's a problem and I had hoped that my mind would 'learn' how to behave and make its own serotonin or whatever it needs, but it seems that it cannot do it alone, yet.
I haven't lost weight yet, though - hopefully my 5-10 will come off. (Captain, I sympathize -- Lex did make me gain too!)
My detox wasn't too bad. I had some swooping dizziness but it wasn't strong. I didn't have some of the awful symptoms I've heard about, luckily.
But I AM feeling more anxious. I guess I feel like I'm admitting failure if I go back on the Lex. I'm too weak to handle "stuff" on my own. I'm a loser. (I know that's not true! I just wanted to be able to do it w/out the drug!)
Wow. I originally started with a post to help support YOU guys, and now I'm whining for help.
Can you guys help me think positively about going back on Lex if I need it? It doesn't mean I'm weak....right? Or that I'll need to be on it forever and then get accustomed to it and then it will stop working and nothing will work and I'll be an even worse anxious mess than I am now????
thanks!
JenStar
> Hey Mrs. C - I am glad to hear you had a good day! I know how nice and important those are! I am doing pretty well myself. My only complaint is that I am thinking the lex has caused me to gain about 5 pounds that i cannot kick. I am training for a half marathon that is taking place in 6 weeks, and am eating more than usual because of all the training - but I just know my body and know that these pounds are NOT normal given the amount of exercise I am doing. It is causing me to want to get rid of the lex, but I worry about anxiety coming back full force. Even though I have not had 100% relief from the lex, it has been enough to worry about what it will be like without it.
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> So basically instead of worrying about my health -I am worrying about these extra pounds!I actually forgot to refill my lex so won't be taking one this evening and wonder if I shouldn't just take this opportunity to wean off. It's a tough call. The good thing is that I guess I could get right back on after a few weeks if it didn't go well.
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> What do you think? Have you tried going off of it and found you were back to your old anxious ways?
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> I would be curious to anyone's response to that!
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> Off to watch the Olympics from bed....
> Captain
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