Posted by corafree on August 6, 2004, at 4:46:18
In reply to trouble waking - when to take effexor, posted by pablo1 on August 5, 2004, at 23:43:09
Living has become a daily nightmare this past week and a half. Since I have borderline
personality disorder, it is time to begin DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy). My
therapist told me I had to be absolutely sure ??? I could go to both sessions a week, one
w/ her and one w/ the group. Since my last doc w/ the God syndrome, whom I will no
longer see, said I was noncompliant (It was becaue I was in the midwest watching my
father die!), I have become noncompliant. That was one of his reasons for taking me off
Klonopin. I was on six a day. Now, I AM missing appts., all kinds of appts. My anxiety
level has gone way up, beyond what two Klonopin can even touch, and I can’t go
anywhere and am agoraphobic. The system I’m in hasn’t even appointed me a new doc
yet. I am either in physical or emotional pain constantly and suidical ideation is at its
greatest. The will and the way are literally worked out. My therapist said that if I failed
to comply w/ DBT it could be very bad for me. I am so undescribably scared and fear (I
HATE FEAR) is ruling me. Still my fam of origin does not show that they care about my
illness, as did my father. My children love me so much that they are even willing to let
me go if I can no longer stand living. My caseworker says ‘don’t sabotage yourself.’ but
I am. HELP! Please help me hang on. I don’t know how to go it alone anymore! I need
you all so very much. cf
poster:corafree
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