Posted by bridgey1128 on June 17, 2004, at 11:25:14
In reply to Good Grief, posted by bruce_w6 on June 17, 2004, at 10:47:32
I have really found that the Topomax does more for my "mania" than for my depression. I have still hit some pretty dark depressions, but they don't last nearly as long. I have still been suidical a couple of times. I don't ever want to tell my Dr this for fear of being put in the looney bin. It's nothing I would act on thankfully. My Dr upped my meds to 100mg at night and 25mg in the morning and then he said in 3 weeks 100mg at night and 50 in the morning so we shall see how that goes. I know I need to go up on the meds because I have been really really cranky and the talkative impulses are back. You know the ones..where you just can't shut your mouth and you end up saying stupid, hurtful things without meaning to. I've tried REALLY hard to bite my tongue. Thank God for Ativan. It kind of mellows me out. Because I am bipolar I can't take it very often or it stops working..that and it's addictive so I just take it every now and then when I feel really edgy and irritable. My "depression" isn't so much sadness as irritation and edginess. I get really snappy. When I do get sad it's an angry sadness, so I guess all my depression has to do with anger. My emotions flip on and off like a lightswitch. I don't normally stew unless something hasn't been resolved. If it has, then I am over it pretty much immediately. Hopefully it will help your depression. I know it's kind of a catch-22 when you get depressed because of your weight or it causes you to STAY depressed because you gain weight. How ironic that a treatment of depression actually can cause you to stay depressed. I guess I am happy I am bipolar and not just depressed. Topomax has helped me not gain anymore weight. So far it hasn't helped me LOSE any. My Dr was happy when I had gone in and had lost 15lbs and he thought it was due to the Topomax and I said..uh no..I have been on the Atkins..hehe oops! sorry to burst his bubble!I think maybe it has kept me from GAINING more so that's good. Since my weight has always been a major cause of my depression part of my bipolar I absolutely refuse to take any drugs that would make me gain. I just don't see it being helpful for me to gain weight to keep from being crazy. I'm bipolar 2. I ain't THAT crazy!
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