Posted by twinmom on March 29, 2004, at 12:28:45
I am desperate to be happy - weekends are the worst - I had a mini melt down and "semi" suicide attempt (it sounds stupid just saying it - all I did was end up with a few scratches - mostly just wanting sympathy I think)
Just got off of Zyprexa, which the only thing that seemed to do was make me gain 30 pounds. I've never been diagnosed bi-polar before just chronic depression that will get better but always comes back, it seems the only things that really seems to works are ritalin or adderal, but then i can't sleep - just got off of ambien after 3 years, which my new psychitrist says was adding to the depression (I was off ambien during my last pregnancy - but that was the only time). I have been on Wellbutrin, elavil, effexor, paxil, prozac, ritalin, adderal, lamictal, among others - most seem to work for a while but nothing every seems to work completly and then they all seem to stop working.
I am just so tired of all of this - I have a great husband and 4 kids a 15 year old, a 9 year old and 2 year old twins and I feel like I am missing my whole life because of my depression.
I have never posted here before (or anywhere like this) - not sure what I am looking for - maybe just some succes stories with my current medications.Thanks for listening
poster:twinmom
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