Posted by Pandabear on March 26, 2004, at 15:22:00
In reply to Re: education, posted by snapper on March 23, 2004, at 13:42:47
Ok, so Im slowly educating myself about BiPolar disorder..but I still dont believe that i have it! I had my session with my therapist yesterday and she said that I do have it and that I have been really hard to diagnose but that I had two options..one is to go to a bipolar support group or to get a second opinion. Im going to get a second opinion. I just do not believe that I have it. She told me that people that are diagnosed with the disorder usually do not believe that they have it...and well...i dont believe it. My dad is going to come into my session and get "educated" because he doesnt believe that I have it either...Im so frustrated and confused. I stopped taking my trazodone and seroquel because the seroquel was making me to groggy and the trazodone wasnt putting me to sleep and now...my depression is coming back because im so overwhelmed with everything. I dont know who to believe or what to believe anymore. They know that i am not taking anything at night to help me sleep...but I can tell that it has changed my mood..BUT, I still dont want to take it because I believe that I dont have it and I dont want to be putting a drug in my body that I feel I dont need. Im so frustrated. I dont know if I am doing right...I know what bipolar disorder looks like and yet I dont want to think that I have it. I dont know what is wrong with me. Im so lost. She asked me if I was feeling depressed and I said no but that I was eventually going to start feeling that way and she asked me if I was feeling suicidal and I said no...But, I had this feeling last night that I was going to take more than one pill of lamictal and that kind of scared me. It was just a thought that raced through my mind...but I didnt do it. Im just so confused. I dont want them freaking out and thinking that if they cant get me to believe that im bipolar and they cant get me to take my medicine that they will put me in the hospital. Im taking the lamictal..but nothing to help me sleep...I feel like im being punished when I take the medicine because it forces me to sleep. ...Im so upset. :(
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