Posted by SandyWeb on March 20, 2004, at 10:38:31
In reply to Re: I've Made A Mess of My Life » PsychoSage, posted by Simus on March 20, 2004, at 10:09:45
I want to thank everyone for your messages. It does help to know that "you hear me". That feels like a hug.
But I had bad news yesterday, and it was all from my own doing. And now there are no more options....I've run out of money, I've run out of TIME. Even if I got my head around that, I'd still be facing a brick wall with no direction to turn. There's just nowhere left to go. Every direction has been closed off, and I'm faced with......nothing. There's not even a decision to make because all doors have been shut. I blew it, when I could have achieved so much....for myself, for my kids, for my family, for my patients. And now that just won't happen.
I feel like taking a walk into the woods, sit under a large tree, and just go to sleep in the snow.
And I'm not feeling sorry for myself. I just seriously have nowhere left to go in my life. Time has run out.
But again, thank you for your messages. You're good people to reach out to a stranger. You're good people to open yourselves to somebody you don't know. You have a strength that will see you through. *hugs*
Sandy
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