Posted by PoohBear on January 23, 2004, at 10:29:58
In reply to Re: discontinuing Effexor, posted by ZAPPA on January 23, 2004, at 1:02:48
> In my darkest hours I felt that God had lost me. I felt so alone, even with my family surrounding me with love and compassion. More often than not their support made me feel worse because I could not explain why I could not be the wife, mother, sister or daughter that I felt they wanted me to be. Would I have felt this way if I was suffering from an illness that manifested itself more apparently such as, God forbid, cancer, etc. I really don't think so. I just knew that I had to fight this illness any way that I could. My resolve was reinforced by the support from my family. So I did fight and I am still fighting. I have hit a few snares but my husband says that I am like a -diamond in the rough- the more it is rubbed, the brighter it shines. As for God loosing me, no way. It is his light that now shines through me!
> Hang in there....I will keep a good thought for you! ZAPPAZAPPA:
Interesting that you should post this, as I faced some of the same issues this week. I wonder the same thing, because my wife DOES have cancer: she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer the same week that I started treatment for depression. (She's on chemo and doing okay...).
The point is this:
We had an argument the other day because I picked up ANOTHER prescription, and because of our deductible, had to pay nearly full price, even with insurance. She went off on why did I need another prescription, how many more was I going to need, etc. My answer was AS MANY AS IT TAKES TO GET IT RIGHT.
I'm in this for the long haul. I WANT TO BE WELL. What she doesn't understand is that i have a disease that can be just as DEADLY as her cancer. The only reason it hasn't resulted in death so far is my faith, though this doesn't work for everyone.
I'm not minimizing the seriousness of her illness, but I want her to give mine the same consideration, not the same short shift is gets from most of society because mental illness is "out of sight, out of mind".
I hope to be able to explain in-depth what my PDoc and I are trying to achieve tonight when we have some time without the teens around.
Funny, my 17 year-old daughter understands perfectly, but my 51 year-old wife doesn't get it...
Best Wishes,
TR
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