Posted by headachequeen on January 4, 2004, at 13:08:13
In reply to Re: really worried about past selenium use » headachequeen, posted by Karen_kay on January 2, 2004, at 22:30:02
> I used to be the exact same way. I couldn't understand how someone could just sit and watch a movie without also reading a book or without getting up at least 12 times to do the laundry, walk the dog, paint your nails, ect.
To my mind it is wasting time to simply sit there watching the screen, unless I am doing something that I view as useful and productive with that time... watching hockey when the Canadiens are playing is productive, watching a sit-com is not; grooming a dog while watching same sit-com is productive, although I have to confess that there are few sit-coms I would watch or listen to even while grooming the dog. Come to think of it, other than to watch an occasional movie, I have not had the television on for over a year, almost two...
I do pop into the room where the other television is now and again to see how a game is going (as in how soon will it be over or to see a bit on antiques roadshow with my favourite expert, Harry Sinden (he and the star of Chef! another BBC export make television worth having and I confess to being able to sit and actually watch Chef! and Darling Buds of May reruns without feeling that I am wasting time...)
but I have to be using that time properly... perhaps some link to childhood and the presbyterian upbringing?? when one was not encouraged to waste time... creative play was encouraged, passive play using games and ideas created by someone else was not... and books were encouraged as opposed to television as they expanded the mind and imagination...I take Topomax to help control epileptic seizures... as has been mentioned before on this board, I am one of the redheads here... we are special... oh soooooooo special.. our blood does not clot properly, so we have a special risk of hemmorhage following surgery and have a hard time with bleeding following even a minor puncture wound...
redheads have severly compromised immune system as I have learned to my sorrow.. spend a lot of time on antibiotics and with an iv pump attached or with nurses coming to the house every eight hours to run iv with fluids and antibiotics...as I work in my fun time training dogs, and have a particular skill with dogs who need behaviour modification I run a particular risk there... it stands to reason that if Rover has a problem with people I may be the plat du jour as we work out the problem... and as I grow older I grow slower in my response time...
but even a sliver or mosquito bite can lead to a flare up of cellulitis and then the round the clock iv and antibiotics..
we are also more sensitive to pain ...
all that aside, following a major emotional breakdown.. the psychiatrist who treated me after my admission to hospital informed me in no uncertain terms that there is no such thing as a nervous breakdown and then went on to inform me that I did not need a psychiatrist as I was not depressed, although I had been being treated for depression for several years... something like fifteen or more...
he told me I had a personality disorder that needed treatment by a psychologist and that I am hypomanic depressive... totally confusing me...
adding that I would require five or six years of psychotherapy before I could overcome the incidents in my childhood that led to this state and that he expected to see me back in hospital in six months and have a good day...
I think mostly I am confused LOLI know that Dr. Bob wants us to be nice about these people in the medical profession and I am being polite when I say that this man became a psychiatrist because he had no bedside manner and could not become a regular doctor and based on the experience I have had with my psycholist would never have made it as a psycholist either...
and my psychologist is not terribly impressed either...
My greatest fear when I hit the periods when I hit the periods of depression such as I have been in recently and the psychologist and my doctor have agreed finally is actually depression that I have been hiding from them because of these fears, is having to go back there and be treated by him again
He is the head of the service and decides which psychiatrist has which patient...
I do not want to go back at all and I certainly would not want him for a doctor... the psychologist and my own doctors have both reassured me that they think I can stay out with no problem but that if ever I need to go back I can refuse to have him as a shrink and ask for the one who admitted me...
my doctor says he would even refer me to her and see that she was my prime caregiver in such an instance...
and that helps immensely...
although I still have no wish to be in hospital...
or on antidepressants if I can help it....
I want it all... and gift-wrapped LOL
kat
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