Posted by worrier on January 3, 2004, at 18:36:19
In reply to Re: Need help.... Starting to lose it over here, posted by watergirl on December 31, 2003, at 12:09:43
> Effexor drove me mad. Sent me to psychosis. Definitely gave me symptoms of OCD(big time). Paxil always worked for me too. I take xanex as needed for my anxiety. Im on WellbutrinSR 400/day
> & Trileptal. Im starting to lose it too Im afraid Im on the verge of another breakdown. I dont see my New Pdoc till 2/3/2004. That is the soonest they can get me in for an intake. There is one pdoc in my town. wish me luck. I have all my best wishes for you. Hang in there. were all here to support each other. Psycho babble saved me. Helps me keep my sanity or helps anyway.>Well'wecome to the starting to lose it here club. I think alot of this is related to the weather (depending on where you live,of course, if you're in Key West or Palm Beach this probably doesn't add much. I haven't posted in quite a while...holidays,bad days, barely livable days....lots of them lately. I've tried wellbutrin (no sleep for days on end, dizziness,etc., Prozac...same basic side eeffects plus headache and depersonalization, paxil, which sent me to the ER for the first time after 20 years of panic attacks. After the Paxil ordeal my Pdoc said it was s serotonin storm amn to stay far far away from SSRIs, so we tried remeron ...made me sleepy, irritable and ravenously hungry all the time, gabitril which seemed to do nothung but make me cry all the time, a pinch of zoloft (12.5mg per day) which seemed to help a bit even though it is an SSRI (he felt o.k. about it due to the really small dose, but then it started making me very nauseated all the time, so back to square 1. Now I'm on serzone with xanax which I started taking after the Paxil fiasco and haven't stopped it. The Serzone doesn't seem to do much except make me lose my balance and forget words. The Xanax keeps the worst of the anxiety at bay, but it'still there(which I would like to mention this daily awful verge of a panic attack didn't start until after the paxil). I too have reached the end of my rope...have an appt. with my pdoc 1/7 so hopefully he'll have something new to pull out of his bag of tricks. This life is unbearable.I go to work (most of the time) I do what is required of me. but it is so much harder and more painful than it was before. I'm not suicidal (yet) though thr thought that if "If I should die before I wake" doesn't scar me like it did when I was a kid! Honestly, and I've told both my therapist and pdoc this, that if they told me tomorrow there was no hope for help, nothing that would ever change me back into the me I was before this crap started then I would be suicidal. As for now hope lives eternal and I continue to stick it out. All I can do is wish us all a better new year and hope that someone who reads this might have an idea or 2 for yours truly. Best to all, worrier.
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