Posted by Pippy on November 18, 2003, at 19:05:18
I have been tossing the thought back and forth for a while and have been afraid to admit or think "Am I depressed ?" I'm afraid I'd be asking for "pity" from other people, or afraid of sounding "to sick".
I hate getting out of bed, I hate being at work, I hate being around people. I've become afraid of any type of intimacy with my partner and I feel myself pushing pushing pushing away. I don't notice the color of the sky or the trees or animals anymore. I hate doing the things I once loved to do. I just want to feel happy again instead of an angry monster all the time. I'm tired of feeling so much self hatred. It's exhausting.I'm driving my partner insane.
I'm in therapy, feeling very stagnant, I suppose I'm trying to rush "treatment" too much. How can I feel better? How can I feel happy???????
poster:Pippy
thread:280978
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20031116/msgs/280978.html