Posted by I am the med I am on on October 10, 2003, at 21:00:46
I am on a good medicine and people fall in love with me and I have a great relationship. I get depressed and anxious if the meds stop working or get on the wrong meds and things just aren't working out. The worst part is, the other person doesn't change and I still love her like always, but I already feel the defeat inside me because I know I feel worse and more worried. I have a chance, we are trying. I think it is my fault. I wish I knew what the hell is going on. I'm tired of people not liking me when I don't like myself much, but I can't blame them. And I can't beg them. I hope to come out of the slump before it's too late, but I'm tired of cutting my losses. It becomes hard to not permanently scar a relationship with your own negative vibes and things you say when you feel bad but don't want to after you feel better. I am who everyone wants to be with, then I am who no one wants to be with. Perhaps I should just sing about it. The stupid dying dwindle of hope.
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