Posted by Angelina on September 4, 2003, at 17:00:05
In reply to Message for Angelina, posted by Music on September 4, 2003, at 8:43:52
> Hey, thank you for responding. I am doing talk therapy, but my therapist has been out of the office the last two weeks. So I am out hanging with really no release. My husband does not really understand what I am truly going through. I can be in a crowded room full of people and still feel so empty and alone. Have you ever felt that way? What State do you live in? If you don't mind me asking. When did you recieve your diagnose? I think that I have been suffering for a long time but I had no name to call it. I hate life sometimes. Sometimes I have no energy to do anything. Sometimes I don't even want to get out of bed, but I know I have to go to work and put on my corporate face and smile and act like everything is alright. Eventhough that is sometimes NOT how I feel at all inside. Do you feel that way?
<Music,
I am not diagnosed clinically depressed; I don't have the typical symptoms of loss of energy, appetite, missed work, etc. I have more of an anxiety issue-for insurance purposes-Generalized Anxiety Disorder- with recent losses exacerbating my symptoms. I often feel like no one could possibly understand how I feel, but I know that A LOT of people have similar experiences, and that's reassuring to me. I do sometimes feel alone, and I think that's partly due to the fact that almost everyone who knows me (at work, in particular) don't know what's going on with me. So, as you described, you pretend that everything's fine, and that's a very distancing feeling. I think it helps to have a trusted confidante. In my experience, that probably WON'T be your significant other. It's just too hard, and all of your emotional needs really SHOULDN'T be met by this one person. So, that's what therapy and a really really good friend are for. Or, these venues can help sometimes. I was looking for a chat room to "talk" with others about what I'm going through, and I didn't find any. Seems the topic is never what they say it is.
Keep in touch.
Oh, I live in NY.
And-for the person who said benadryl would help with the withdrawal symptoms-it definitely did!!! Of course, I was hopped up (or down, I guess) all day at work, but I'd rather feel dopey than all "head-y". THANKS!
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