Posted by trucker on September 1, 2003, at 1:05:27
In reply to Re: SHAY AND LEXAPRO, posted by BLKVETTES on August 31, 2003, at 8:09:44
> > > Hi Trucker, that must have been real hard dealing with all that on your own. Like you say we all have a story or two. None of them happy ones. My oldest daughter is due within 30 days and the baby is turned the wrong way. She will get the latest picture here soon. If the baby has not turned I guess they do a c-section. Of course I worry about everything that could go wrong. Just my nature I guess!!!!!! I notice a lot of us that suffer have humor. I guess its our way of masking pain. You take care TRUCKER!!!!!!!!!
> > > WAYNE
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> > I UNDERSTAND THIS WELL, FOR YEARS PEOPLE THOUGHT I WAS THE HAPPIEST INDIVIDUAL IN THE WORLD. YOU COULD BASICALLY HAND ME A PILE OF DOG SH-T AND I'D SMILE AT YA AND ASK WHERE YA WANTED IT. I DON'T HAVE ANY CLOSE FRIENDS DO TO OCCUPATION AND OF COURSE MY HANG UPS. PEOPLE GET TOO CLOSE AND REALIZE THERE IS SOMETHING DIFFERENT ABOUT ME. BECAUSE I'M LIKE A ROCK. NOT EASILY SHAKEN "SO THEY THINK." I DON'T ALLOW THEM TO GET CLOSE. BECAUSE I DON'T WANT HURT ANY MORE. IF YOU READ ABOUT MY CHILDHOOD YOU WOULD KNOW WHAT I MEAN. ONE THING AFTER A NOTHER. LEX MAKES ME FEEL MORE LIKE I USE TO BEFORE MY MIND AND BODY CRASHED. I CAN THINK AND FUNCTION. AND HAVE JOYFUL SEX TOO... WE JUST DON'T LET ANY ONE GET TOO CLOSE SO THEY CAN'T SEE OUR PAIN AND WEAKNESS. AND IN THE END WE HURT OURSELVES BECAUSE WE ARE ALWAYS LONLY.
> > TRUCKER
> > A VERY LONELY JOB... NOT FOR SEX OR DRUGS OR ANY THING. JUST SOME ONE TO TALK TO AND PEOPLE YOU ENJOY BEING NEAR.
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> Hi Trucker, thats one of the things Im grateful for is the return of my sense of humor. Yes it does protect me. Yes Im afraid to let people get to close to me for reasons you explain. You dont let people get close you cant get hurt right. Thats kind of sad though. Even on the computer I feel myself connecting with someone and I have to push myself away. I think if we keep going back and forth like this we will be redirected to psycho babble search for a friend match. LOL
> WAYNE
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if i can figure out how to get there that will be ok too. as for your reply, i understand, i keep a distance too, but it the end it only hurts us because we are missing on possible friends etc... experienceing joy of life, not just pain of life. lex has giving me a fight i had lost. i was giving up. and now folks round here don't want to mess with me cause im not passive no more. i am starting to fight for me alittle. thats lex and counsoling. lex has put me in the how dare you mood, cross the line and get stomped....
vilent but in control, only vilent when pushed.
in control, so don't worry...
trucker
man what a rush when you get angry, talk about the best speed, i can't sleep, and my teeth do pay. ha! ha!
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