Posted by zeugma on August 27, 2003, at 10:03:45
In reply to Re: pdoc puzzle re: anxiety » zeugma, posted by Viridis on August 26, 2003, at 23:53:56
The worst problem I am having with my anxiety is thhat I am even questioning if it is real. I.e. this pdoc that I have trusted tells me CBT will solve my anxiety disorder, and then I freak out and get all kinds of crazy symptoms... Also a problem is that AvPD people have a really hard time telling others the truth about how they feel because they are so preoccupied with thoughts like. "Will this person take this seriously? Will it sound like I'm exaggerating? Will it seem like I'm manipulating him to get what I want?" THis last one is what really scares me because there can be a grain of truth to it with respect to drugs of 'abuse.' Ironically, this means I DO have to be become extremely strategic (that I do have to manipulate the situation somewhat) in order to handle this situation right. I feel like when I will see him I will be so upset that whatever I say will be tinged with hysteria and that he might conclude that I'm either putting on a show, or secretly an addict craving a legal high.
In truth I would much rather NOT have to discuss my medication issues with him. I would have l;iked to have stabilized my meds and been able to cut down on the number of times I had to see him (he's expensive and doesn't accept my insurance). The idea about CBT was that it was in lieu of a new med. I suppose the biggest problem is that I feel I am so much more informed about the nature and treatments for social phobia by now than he is, and yet he's the one writing the prescriptions. I have asked my CB therapist for a referral to a pdoc specializing in anxiety in case I will need a 'second opinion.' After all people don't hesitate to do that if they are going to have a heart operation, and my head is just as important as my heart :-)
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