Posted by CherC68 on July 21, 2003, at 19:42:47
In reply to Re: Hey Cher, posted by willie on July 21, 2003, at 19:31:24
Willie, I just talked to my husband and I'm doing a bit better. He knows that I do everything and its getting harder by the day.
I'm close to rock bottom - hey - i may not take crap from anyone anymore and I'm strong that way - but....inside man - i don't know.
I took a xanax earlier - that's the only meds I'm on - the wellbutrin made my hands and feet hurt more than they already did so I stopped.
My biggest problem is I'm not seeing a therapist - they have them at the clinic - but the clinic suggested I needed a pdoc first - so - Zinya and everyone on here has been my sounding board.
For me it seems to be easier to type this out than sitting and talking with someone about the crap in my head. That's why I keep thinking a blog would be better for me, but like I said - I read the posts and if I feel I have something helpful to say I say it - but lately I been taking more from babble than giving and I'm sorry.
I will make it through this night and tomorrow night and tomorrow I will do double duty to find a pdoc & therapist.
Thanks Willie I'm feeling more self-control right now. I wish the crazy thoughts like - "ram your head into the wall - I bet you won't feel it" - that's sick - but that's what I feel in my head.
The song by The Wallflowers "I started a Joke" - from the movie Zoolander is playing in my head NON-STOP - since Saturday afternoon. That's sort of how I feel now.
Well, time to now start bleaching my basement. I will work only 1/2 hour and I think I'm going to take dog for a walk and go to bed.
Again, Willie thank you so much for caring - and I hope you and everyone has a peaceful, happy, anxiety free night!
Love, Cher
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