Posted by ayuda on November 24, 2002, at 21:15:26
In reply to Re: Side-effects - best data » ayuda, posted by Donna Louise on November 24, 2002, at 20:44:06
> I think I know what you are talking about with the disconnection. I have thought of it as depersonalization. It is hard to describe,but I had it with paxil. I would tell people it felt like I was dreaming. I am taking Lexapro now and am happy to tell you that I am not having this side effect. As a matter of fact, the only side effects I am having are the sexual ones and a slight emotional numbing. Of course that may be what normal feels like, I wouldn't know!
> Donna Louise
Thank you so much for that info. You and JLM have given me the name for that -- depersonalization. It is so appropriate. It makes life feel like being at an IMAX movie, or like you said, like you are dreaming. I am really hoping that I don't experience it with the Lexapro -- and it is heartening to hear that you haven't had it with the Lex. But speaking of dreaming, are you having vivid dreams that feel real with the Lex? I'm having some really zany dreams, which is not like me, but they aren't unpleasant. Just vivid.The emotional numbing, do you mean as if you were taking a mood-stabilizer? If you've never taken one, it pretty much puts you in one mood -- which was necessary for me when I had a tyrant of a supervisor at the time this depression started and I needed to not harm her -- for legal and ethical reasons -- before I could change jobs. I didn't get extremely anything, which I usually do.
And I understand your point about normal -- I actually was feeling "normal" for most of my 20s and into my early-30s, so I have this vague memory of what it felt like, which is how I know I'm not it. Then again, even that idea changes over time. The closest I ever came to putting a finger on it was when I started Zoloft the first time, my first SSRI. I was driving down the road and someone attempted to turn left from the right lane, and I was in the left lane, so they almost creamed me. I blew on my horn, pointed my finger at them, then went on, and 3 blocks later I realized that I wasn't still shaking and screaming about it, in fact, I was over it, and I thought, "so this is what it's like to be a normal person." So, as long as I'm not a raving maniac, I figure I, and the rest of the world, am lucky.
I'm not completely only on the Lexapro yet -- my doctor increased my Effexor to a slower taper because I was becoming an anxiety-ridden screaming maniac late last week. So I don't know what life will be like when I am only on the Lex.
Thanks again for the info and support where the depersonalization is concerned -- since you've experienced it, you know why I don't want to mess with it for a minute. Defeats the purpose of getting my life back from the depression and anxiety!
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