Posted by BrittPark on October 3, 2002, at 19:26:44
In reply to Can an Acid Trip cause severe depression?, posted by Jefff on October 3, 2002, at 16:08:56
I'm convinced that bad trips can have permanent effects. When I was 19 I took what I believed to be mescaline (it was probably acid) with a friend. We were having a dandy time but then my friend had to go home. Within minutes of his departure I fell victim to an unreasoning terror. Terror with no object, but terror nevertheless. The acute effects dissipated by the time I went to bed. When I woke the next morning, I realized that something was still wrong. I wan't in terror, but I was afraid of that terror returning.
To cut a long story short, from that day I never felt right again. I've been taking antidepressants and other meds now for 20 years, and most of the time they work. But I'm still not what I was when I was 18.
My doctor and I have a theory that I suffer from some sort of PTSD, the trauma being the bad trip.
I'm sorry if this isn't very comforting. Remember though that with proper meds you can learn to live and even enjoy most of your life.
Britt
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