Posted by Gracie2 on September 26, 2002, at 23:27:59
In reply to Re: my sad life story long but interesting , posted by jay60 on September 22, 2002, at 8:48:10
Brice-
I don't have the answers for you. Nobody does. It probably doesn't help you, but since the beginning of time, people the world over have been looking for "the answer", a purpose in life.
Some people find cults. Others find religion. Many people devote themselves to a job or a cause.
Many people remain lost. Ultimately, you must find your own way. I don't have answers, but here are some thoughts:
-Don't concentrate on "what could have been", like a career in Special Forces. If you're determined to do macho stuff like jump out of airplanes or rappell from a cliff, you can do all that as a civilian without the drudgery, humiliation, hard work and uncomfortable living that most of military life entails. Stick to paintball.I cannot preach about drug or alcohol abuse, I've been down both roads. It's a lonely and often terrible way to live. Eventually you forget about the better things in life...you neglect your family and friends and, worse, you start to disgust them, and they usually give up on you. You forget about all the things you wanted to do,
the places you wanted to visit, the things you wanted to see. Your appearance disintegrates. Your health starts to fail. You no longer think about jumping out of airplanes, diving in the Bahamas, starting your own business. All you care about is the next drink or the next fix, and in all liklihood, you will die alone in a pool of vomit.You know, we can do better. Despite anything standing in our way - poor health, dysfunctional family, mental illness - we can rise above that.
We can pull ourselves together, we can set goals,
we can strive to meet them. We can accomplish things that we never thought ourselves capable of. But we have to try.
-Gracie
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