Posted by Karmagirl on July 12, 2002, at 16:24:52
In reply to Re: Topamax: Weight loss/Cognitive Chgs, posted by suji on July 11, 2002, at 21:32:55
WOW Suji! You are exactly right! I guess it does sound kind of "ick" saying I have a "person" to lose. I won't defend it because you've corrected me in a way that was gentle enough that I've taken no offense. Let me explain why I said I have a PERSON to lose: All my life, I've been overweight. As a teenager, I used to have very low self esteem. Other kids would tease me and make fun of me. But that was outside of my home. Inside my home, in an African American home, I didn't have to worry about looking like the images in magazines, on tv or being shaped like a baby doll. None of those images were black anyway so I'd never be them regardless of what I did. My role models (mom, grandma, aunts) all had big hips, breasts and thighs. And were beautiful women that taught me to love myself like I was. As my attitude and confidence at home began to spill over into my attitude about myself at school and outside of home, I began to see myself and carry myself differently. I noticed that as I carried myself and saw myself differently, people treated me and saw me differently. From this, I concluded that people see us the way we see ourselves. I'm a big sexy girl and can go in any club and not sit down all night. No one can tell me I'm not the hottest female present:0) There used to be a time when I'd go in with my head down and not be asked to dance a single dance ALL night. I hope this encourages SOMEONE who reads this thread. My desire to lose the weight now is not to look better but to live better and to be more comfortable. The cure for depression, obesity and any ailments are not in pills and doctors alone. No offense Dr. Bob. You da man! (lol) The cure is in you. The cure is in the overcoming and in the knowing that you are greater than what you look like. It's in the knowing that your beauty extends beyond the mirror. It's in a relationship with the Creator that took the time to divinely select you for His purpose. The cure is in knowing you have the authority and the power to still the voices of the enemy when he tells you you're not. (Ephesians 6:10-16) Can anybody tell I'm gonna be a minister someday??? lol Okay. Enough for now. Don't want to be thought of as a fanatic....Just a lover of the Lord and I know first hand what has and IS working for me. KEEP THE FAITH!!!!! Thanks again Suji! I bid you all peace and blessings.
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