Posted by AllieD on June 26, 2002, at 19:32:56
In reply to diagnosis, posted by katekite on June 26, 2002, at 15:24:40
Well, that's the thing -- I have been diagnosed with ADD (with lots of formal testing) and been through all kinds of diagnostic things -- I used to have PTSD, although I no longer do, but I still have anxiety and depression and leftover PTSD things, certainly.
I think I have such a mishmash of symptoms that I don't fit in any category -- and actually that's what my doctors tend to put down, Depressive Disorder NOS. I hate being NOS but there's no way to pin down things for everybody. I've tried millions of different drugs (ok, maybe ten different antidepressants, plus lithium and depakote) and none of them have been effective at all, except for the benzos and the atypical APs.
So I'm really frustrated and I've given up finding one thing that's wrong with me. I'm about ready to give up on all the drugs. I'm about ready to give up. It's just frustrating. Some people just don't fit into the categories.
I do think I'm fairly stable in some respects -- I just graduated college and I'm able to work on a freelance career while working part time and keeping busy in other ways. I wouldn't be able to do all that I do if I was that bad off. It's the mix of things that are wrong with me, rather than the extent of them, that make me feel unstable. Sometimes I worry that I'm borderline but that has been ruled out by more than one doctor.
Sorry for rambling --
Allie
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