Posted by noa on November 7, 2001, at 19:17:57
In reply to Re: med combo » Noa, posted by sar on November 6, 2001, at 22:52:17
That is the second time this month I heard/saw a recitation of Richard Corey!! The other was on the TV show The Guardian a few episodes ago. Sorry I hurt your feelings, but thanks for the detailed response. I think the question about joking is due to how witty you are, and yes, I can relate to using the dark humor in trying to just get through it all. I just needed to check, you know? I think the question someone (was it Mair?) asked about whether you'd gone beyond just picking the rope out in your mind was a good question. Do you feel safe from acting on the suicidal feelings?
I think the approach of that clinic, of attributing the depression to the drug use is too simplistic. As you said, the depression came first. So many people find the drugs to self-medicate the depression/anxiety, etc. Drug use can exacerbate the depression, though, as you probably know, so it can become a chicken-and-egg thing. But the main thing is that you aren't using, ie, you are really trying to take better care of yourself.
As for THE ONE medicine--obviously you already know that the science of these meds is still unrefined and it's hard to get the combo right--it takes a lot of trial and error. I was discouraged so many times, but am glad I stuck around because I did finally find a "good enough" combo that made me feel much better (now if I could get rid of the remaining side effects it would be perfect rather than "good enough" but they aren't so bad--I am willing to put up with them because of the monumental difference between how badly I was doing and how much better I feel now).
;^) I would say "hang in there" as encouragement, but given the rope thing, maybe it is not prudent, and I should use a different expression.....:^)
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