Posted by CynthiaM. on September 8, 2000, at 10:46:46
Ok, folks I know it has been a loooong time since I have posted and I am really needing some good advice. My pdoc has decided on a meds holiday. Everything down for a clearance of one week and then onto lithium , risperdal and / or lamictal. I have taken lithium in the past but was grabbing for the walls ( no equilibrium) but I was also addicted to xanax at the time. Now I am coming down off of Trileptal 2400mg, Gabitril 36mg, remeron 15mg,Carbatrol 2700mgs , cogentin 1mg 2x a day, and off of klonopin all together which I guess I have been majorly od'ing on. (3 mgs 3 - 4 x day) anyway, I guess my problem is that I feel like driving into a brick wall and I am having a hard time holding it together. I am throwing things and swearing and driving toofast and am way too horny... I can say all of these things and I know they are happening to me and yet it still continues and I feel powerless to stop the madness.I am spinning rapidly out of control. I cannot be hospitalized right now because there is so much that requires my attention with my kids and I know it sounds so arrogant but I am truly indespensible. Besides , the nearest funny farm is 6 hours away and that is too far to be away from my family.My husband will be home this weekend so that is better but I have to try and exist like this until I can get on new meds and that will be the 19th ......... anyway, I am just really having a hard time and am feeling so out of control I am fight ing the urge to start cutting again but am having trouble staying home because in the mornings I am alone and it is too easy to fall into the temptation to cut..... I know I am babbling but if anyone can make sense of this could you please give me some ideas? I have no idea what to expect while detoxing from klonopin..... Thanks for listening- CynthiaM
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