Posted by Lin on July 22, 2000, at 19:50:05
I guess what I am looking for is support (not an easy thing for me to openly solicit). I am taking 4 drugs -- lithium, klonopin, zyprexa and depakote, and am really worried about what these drugs are doing to my body. Plus, I am so tired of side effects and finding the right "mix" that some days I just want to give up. I feel like I spend all day thinking about when I have to pop my next pill, or contemplating my mood disorder, or taking inventory of my current state of mind. I work in the mental health field, so I feel like I have to keep all of this totally secret and as I see patients, I feel like I could be (and am) sittting on their side of the table. I am so tired of feigning "normalcy", and I am so discouraged as I write this, I feel like I could cry. I am a bipolar I who was misdiagnosed for 10 years. During that time, I was always on monotherapy, give or take a stint of adding a benzo to an SSRI. Now I feel like a walking science experiment and the nature of these drugs seems more serious to me. Do any of you have any of these thoughts/anxieties? I guess I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening. Lin
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