Posted by Abby on May 6, 2000, at 21:53:30
In reply to did my post appear anywhere?, posted by Vesper on May 6, 2000, at 21:02:43
> I can't say much right now, but I posted a message days ago, and was wondering if anyone saw it...it was very long and I don't have the energy to repeat it all right now, but I want to say that I am grateful for what I read when I looked at psychobabble a couple of days ago...maybe i will post again, if you all really want me to. I feel a stupid posting after all that, like maybe people will think I said goodbye to get attention..maybe I did, I don't really know what I am doing anymore. I believed what I wrote though, and am pretty sure I still believe it. I've been drinking a lot to keep myself unconscious when I want to be, to make time go by faster so I can get things taken care of, so I am free to hurt myself badly. I am planning self-destructive things, and maybe the fact that I am telling you all this means something. but what? I can't think too clearly right now, sorry. I feel really guilty for being so ..well whatever I am .
Vesper,
I didn't see the original message, but I do want to say: Don't feel guilty. (The fact that you do feel guilty is one, and clearly only one, of teh things which makes me think you are really not well.)
Glad to see you back. *Please* don't hurt yourself.--Abby
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