Posted by Noa on January 27, 2000, at 7:55:02
Now that I have read a bit about reboxetine, I am intrigued by the idea of it working less on mood and more on drive and motivation. It seems that a combo of something that works on mood plus reboxetine would be good for someone like me, who has mood problems and motivation/drive problems.
My current cocktail seems to be working fairly well. My mood is much better, and I am functional. But I am plateuing in this place where it is hard to get motivated and active. I don't know if it is the anxiety I feel about investing in hope for the future, or is it pharmocological/physiological or both. I just have such a hard time at work and getting anything done at home. I am not investing in anything. It is existence. In a long distance phone conversation, my friend suggested I need to do something fun. When I thought about it, I had the hardest time imagining myself doing anything fun. We had two snow days this week and I was so bored. The first day I was on the computer a lot, compulsively doing crossword puzzles, which I have doing in a binge fashion lately, but have been enjoying less and less, and checking babble all too frequently. I wanted to read, but couldn't concentrate. The 2nd day, I got myself to go out and dig my car out, which took a very long time because the snow plows had buried us in. Later, I did manage to read a bit, but it was a struggle to focus. I am a lover of reading, but I tend to go in phases--sometimes I devour books, other times I cannot read two sentences without getting distracted and having to reread them, only to give up. Further on the matter of something fun--I did see that there was a performance I know I would like by a dance company I love, and I actually looked up the tickets and all, only to discover they are super expensive. I am kind of inclined to splurge if only because it will be the first thing in a long time I could possibly get jazzed about.
This restricted existence is like living in a box. It certainly is better than being crushed by devastating depression, or even bogged down by more moderate depression. But it is a no-man's land between that suffering on the one hand, and true living, on the other.
Back to the topic-reboxetine--can anyone who takes it report on whether it helps them feel more motivated and goal directed?
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