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Posted by Phil on July 26, 2009, at 23:12:49
I must have really pissed god off in my misspent youth cause I'm paying for it now. I'll talk to Mr pdoc tomorrow about hospital again.
I'm having mixed states, throwing up my meds as soon as I take them and finding that when bipolar decides to flex it's muscles, you better try to hold on the best you can.
Others think I'll get through this and I'm sure I will. I just have no idea how that's going to happen.
It's more than scary. My whole life's imploding and all I can do is watch. I'm too sick to fight.
Posted by Deneb on July 26, 2009, at 23:22:54
In reply to I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 26, 2009, at 23:12:49
You don't deserve to feel this way. ((((Phil)))
I really hope you feel better soon. I'm sending good thoughts your way. Thanks for trying to help my by the way. ((((Phil))))
Posted by Bobby on July 26, 2009, at 23:51:23
In reply to I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 26, 2009, at 23:12:49
Man--I am so sorry to hear this phil. maybe you've contracted something else on top of what you already had(perhaps a physical ailment)----or it may be morphing into something new. Is there anything I can do? I'm optimistic by the fact you're still posting----but I know from experience how far away morning can be. Prayers out to you friend-----real ones.
Posted by Tabitha on July 27, 2009, at 1:54:20
In reply to I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 26, 2009, at 23:12:49
I wish there was something I could do, Phil.
Posted by manic 666 on July 27, 2009, at 6:31:55
In reply to I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 26, 2009, at 23:12:49
phil im not bipola. just crazy hence my forum name ,i didnt have to think of a name i aready new one,the 666 devil sigh would scare the sh*t out most but hey not me, people turn to god as a last resort in illness ,why dont he help if he is that good , 666 means i dont care , flat line i tell you there is f*** all out there, only cold an dark. no body waveing you into paradice.my overdose was caused by doctor error big time,my flat line by brandy an vodka error my fault, my way off getting out of a magor crisis , was i thought this is going to be a big one, i no when there comming an last for weeks or even years in total meltdown. i thought like you im going to be put on the ad trail, give me a pin ,stick it in a page of ad,s an try that one, my plan went into action no help hospital ,up the ativan take a drink,wwwwwwwwwwow good plan on planets with barbrella every mans dream.got to stop at some level as running out of ativan i had stored for years ,now on ten no benifit, so bottle brandy,hello miss fonda im back , but not for long reached my limit only death on this cocktail , i had no ad,s,at that time,still waiting for nut hospital appointment,now what do i do ive had the fun bit an its bit me in the balls,now nobody on this planet can visualise the pain im obout to enter , now at my limit the only way is down ,i started fighting with my family banging my head on the wall the lot, taken by family to hospital , by the way they had no idea of my drink an med blitz, i thought i would go out rock star style,the rest is wrote in the arcives obout being in hospital an the stopping dead my ativan vodka an brandy,an sh*t docs , i came out of that scarred behond belief , but phil im hear talking to you, well the half thats left of me,an still on ad,s an the ativan the gp gave me back they dont even try to get me off ativan now, them an me near on killed me, that why security hangs roung at the mental hospital when i go , i have so much anger with the sh*t heads i carnt hold it in, but i need an ad even if i dont want it think about it, stay safe my buddy
Posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 8:14:18
In reply to I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 26, 2009, at 23:12:49
Thanks. I've been out of work for 1.5 months unpaid and still have to pay hospital.
It was 101 degrees here at 9 last night. Both of my AC's are barely working. I sit at my computer in bucketloads of sweat.
When I was taking Pristiq, I'd take my lithium etc at night and in less than a minute, violently throw up. Did the same last night without Pristiq.
Could of been the heat or the fact that many, many days, I don't have the energy to go get something to eat.....nothing. Water, that's it.
My brothers and friends are on pins and needles probably just waiting for 'the call'.
I'm doing what I can to make them not have to get that call but I've made no promises to no one.
If somehow my cat was going through this, I'd have him put down. It would be the only humane thing to do.
If there was a god there would have never been a Holocaust. I'm not sure if prayers help anymore and I've totally lost faith in medicine.
Psychiatrist are 1/2 step above dealers, except even dealers have morals not to push drugs that do this to you. Find a good dealer and you get good stuff every time, can anyone here say that about their doctors? I think not.
That's it from Texas, where pets explode in front of your eyes from the heat.
Posted by Partlycloudy on July 27, 2009, at 9:17:43
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 8:14:18
I bet you're losing more than just water, buddy. Can you choke down some gatorade or the equivalent? Maybe you won't feel so wretched. So very sorry it's going like this for you.
You've got plenty of friends on your side, if that counts for anything.
love,
Partlycloudy
Posted by obsidian on July 27, 2009, at 10:03:41
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 8:14:18
hey Phil,
sounds like you're going through some seriously painful times. I hope you're not getting dehydrated..are you drinking water? These illnesses of ours have a way of convincing us that it will always be this way. What you are going through isn't fair. I think you can get through this, and as someone said 'sometimes, the only way out is through'..or something like that.
((((Phil))))
Do what you need to to take care of yourself. You are very important to us.
-sid
Posted by Angela2 on July 27, 2009, at 10:43:27
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 8:14:18
Posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 11:35:48
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick » Phil, posted by obsidian on July 27, 2009, at 10:03:41
Have a friend bringing gatorade, crackers, bananas, and gingerale. I requested a hooker, he said he'd see what he could do.
I took a pristiq think this was withdrawal...threw it up.
Still waiting for idiot sit-in doc to call. his name, howser.
when i called my doc off back after 3 hours of no call, i said dorothy, when's this doogie bastard gonna call me i'm dying here. word for word.
Posted by Bobby on July 27, 2009, at 12:06:44
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 8:14:18
Heat can do funny things to you. just think of all of the movies and songs about the heat---it had to make some kind of contribution to your condition. Work? ----see above about heat. you sound a lot better today----MUCHO BUENO! You don't have to believe in anything like prayers---but you're still here today.:) Back straight---stomach in--and head up!!! Thanks for the update----and making it. I told some folks in chat last night I'd known you for almost a decade and never seen you this bad----but I did know you were tough as nails and held your sense of humor close like a teddy bear. Take care---I gotta get ready for work.
Posted by social on July 27, 2009, at 12:28:27
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick » Phil, posted by obsidian on July 27, 2009, at 10:03:41
Phil,
Sid is so correct when she wrote this "These illnesses of ours have a way of convincing us that it will always be this way. What you are going through isn't fair."
It won't always be like this. It just *feels* like it won't change.
Work on getting through the minutes. One at a time.
Hoping Doogie calls back soon.
Please try to drink some gatorade in small sips. Dehydration can sneak up on you and create some additional blah symptoms to the bipolar stuff.
((Phil)) We all need you around a lot longer and feeling a ton better.
Keep talking to us here.
Posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 13:06:35
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick, posted by social on July 27, 2009, at 12:28:27
thanks y'all.
dr doogie is calling in a suppository
(ewww, I like it..skate a little slower now) for the projectile vomiting but I need to find a way to get it.I refuse to walk into the store disheveled and naked again. Hair all messed up, 10 day growth of beard, flip flops, a cigar, and a parrot.
I would like them to see my left cheek 'Amy' right cheek 'Winehouse' tattoo's though. It's hard to show them off.
Posted by Sigismund on July 27, 2009, at 19:51:53
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 8:14:18
>If somehow my cat was going through this, I'd have him put down. It would be the only humane thing to do.
Well, of course Phil, I know.
Best of luck anyway friend.
Posted by henrietta on July 27, 2009, at 20:21:02
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 13:06:35
Oh, Phil, dadnabit, you've forced me out of unregistration.(Please forgive quaint substitutions. I know they sound ridiculous.)
"I refuse to walk into the store disheveled and naked again. Hair messed up, 10 day growth of beard, flip flops, a cigar, and a parrot."
Now THAT would be a wonderful tweet (twitter?) for PB.
You're too da*n witty and smart to let this temporary "thing" get you permanently down. I know how hard it is to see beyond it, but you WILL move beyond it, and we'll all the be better for your having made it through.
Thinking of you with affection and hope.
henrietta
Posted by henrietta on July 27, 2009, at 20:33:06
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick » Phil, posted by henrietta on July 27, 2009, at 20:21:02
I know SD is a long way from Amy Winehouse, but I thought I caught a whiff. Hey Nineteen?, perhaps?
Haven't heard it in a long time; thanks for reminding me of it.
Posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 23:45:07
In reply to A whiff of Steely Dan? » henrietta, posted by henrietta on July 27, 2009, at 20:33:06
Thanks for picking up on that! Always a great line. 'Skate a little slower now.'
Steely Dan has been my favorite since the moment I first heard them. Which was when their first album dropped.
Amy is one of the top 3 vocalists of all time. She's a genius and music people and historians will tell you that. Billie Holliday comes in 2nd plus Amy writes the most honest, profound lyrics I've ever heard.
They are both jazz based outfits so they have a lot in common really.
Posted by Tabitha on July 28, 2009, at 2:13:49
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 13:06:35
Med suppositories? Yeesh! What indignities will they think of next?
Posted by Phil on July 28, 2009, at 5:42:34
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick » Phil, posted by Tabitha on July 28, 2009, at 2:13:49
They were for my throwing up, tab. Anyway, he wrote it for pills and I was able to keep them down.
Aggie joke: An Aggie(Texas A& M)went to his doc for some ailment and the doc wrote for some suppositories.
The undergrad didn't improve so went to his doc again.
The doc said, how did those suppositories work for you, son?
He said doc for all the good they did I should have just shoved them up my #ss!bada bing bada boom!! cymbal crash
Posted by Phillipa on July 28, 2009, at 10:53:21
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick » Tabitha, posted by Phil on July 28, 2009, at 5:42:34
Phil see your're last post was early this am. Have you slept and stopped vomitting? So what's the plan? Love Phillipa
Posted by Phil on July 28, 2009, at 12:52:40
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick » Phil, posted by Phillipa on July 28, 2009, at 10:53:21
Posted by henrietta on July 28, 2009, at 12:53:45
In reply to Re: A whiff of Steely Dan? » henrietta, posted by Phil on July 27, 2009, at 23:45:07
For reasons I don't fully understand, I've not been able to listen to music for several years, but it used to be one of my greatest pleasures. A friend who remembers that gave me an Amy Winehouse CD a year or so ago, but I haven't really listened to it.
He knows me, knows what I like (or liked) to listen to. Since she's been recommended by two people I admire (you and friend) I think I'll give Amy a try....maybe this can be a breakthrough for me. Thanks, Phil.I hope you're beginning to feel better today. Take good care.
Henrietta
Posted by Phil on July 28, 2009, at 12:54:17
In reply to Re: I am so, so, so sick (nm), posted by Phil on July 28, 2009, at 12:52:40
Posted by Bobby on July 28, 2009, at 13:19:58
In reply to Where'd post go. Write later. I'm OK (nm), posted by Phil on July 28, 2009, at 12:54:17
It's all part of the Royal Scam....
Posted by Kath on July 30, 2009, at 20:45:44
In reply to I am so, so, so sick, posted by Phil on July 26, 2009, at 23:12:49
Dear Phil,
I am so sorry you're having such an awful time.I'm keeping you in my thoughts Phil, for what it's worth.
love, Kath
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