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Posted by a very little sphinx on July 12, 2003, at 19:47:36
no car. no car + work = no work. no work = no money. life = -money. + following = less money. no way to make +money...you leave people alone and they ship you off to shuffle the halls of United Fruit... looking at the life outside behind mesh bars. thankyou for your humble understanding of my bar room talk.
bar room talk amongst, uohnh... im not sure.
billy,
work peyote
sun the blonde outtrigger trigger
trigger
triggerhow dare you question me?
fast speaking women,
white eyesthe meals were horrible, the group sessions pointless, the black crack of the intercom,
i don't understand, why aren't you happy?you're on your own now
you're on your own now
you're on your own now.going up in smoke,
and i've got no hope...thanks for the time out,
i needed that, curse words and ill words deserve a short sharp shock.i like it,
i like to be punishedi've done, questionable
things.thankyou.
the voice
of Montserrat Caballe.
Posted by Miller on July 12, 2003, at 21:30:26
In reply to ive been let down., posted by a very little sphinx on July 12, 2003, at 19:47:36
Sphinx,
I am glad to see you are back. I can totally relate to your impressions of the "help" you received. When I was put in the County facility, it was horrible. I was more scared than I have ever been before. It was all an act. Some people really wanted to stay in. They would act "better" for a while and then have a "relapse" and have to stay. Other people (myself included) pretended everything was alright so I could get out.
I think it is all about finding a therapist that you can trust. Once that happens, the real healing can start. If I didn't think he cared as much as I do about me, I'm not sure I could have continued.
I hope you feel welcomed and supported here. I love your posts. We missed you.
-Miller
Posted by a very little sphinx on July 12, 2003, at 21:43:50
In reply to Welcome back, posted by Miller on July 12, 2003, at 21:30:26
it's just a mix of two different types of people, really sad people, and really crazy people, and I guess really sad and crazy people... and you put all those people in the same space and treat them like children and lock them up and get them up and feed them and shuffle them about... take away everything it feels fine... catch the shape in the circles of my my mind...
Posted by whiterabbit on July 12, 2003, at 21:53:14
In reply to Welcome back, posted by Miller on July 12, 2003, at 21:30:26
Posted by fallsfall on July 13, 2003, at 0:53:18
In reply to ive been let down., posted by a very little sphinx on July 12, 2003, at 19:47:36
Posted by noa on July 13, 2003, at 10:47:09
In reply to ive been let down., posted by a very little sphinx on July 12, 2003, at 19:47:36
Yes, I remember a lot of those feelings from being in the hospital too. Like having my shoes taken away and having to wear stupid paper slippers with--get this---**SMILEY FACES**--on the toes, looking up at all of us sad and crazy folks!!
Somewhere in my files, I have all my scribbles from those hospital days--I scribbled down as many thoughts as I could about that experience, because it was so bizarre to me.
Posted by yesac on July 13, 2003, at 16:19:20
In reply to Re: ive been let down. » a very little sphinx, posted by noa on July 13, 2003, at 10:47:09
It's stories like these that really make me NOT want to go to a hospital. Well, among other reasons.... I just don't know if I could stand the rules and restrictions and childish treatment like you all have described.
Posted by Miller on July 13, 2003, at 16:27:12
In reply to Re: Welcome back » Miller, posted by a very little sphinx on July 12, 2003, at 21:43:50
What I saw in my involuntary stay was there were the "functional" people and the "non-functional". The STAFF was too busy to assist the non-functional most times so the functional, out of human respect took care of them. I found that so heart breaking. I did have a little more respect for my therapists office the next time I went in. Being able to have freedom to storm out in a fit felt good. Not that I ever did. But, I could have.
Welcome home, sphinx.
-Miller
Posted by zenhussy on July 14, 2003, at 0:02:08
In reply to ive been let down., posted by a very little sphinx on July 12, 2003, at 19:47:36
and I'll help pick you back up sphinx. I heard your holler and will hopefully be in that physical proximity soon and be able to actually read mail and hear my messages. All things I still haven't done from flying home Wednesday night.
For now I've been grabbed up in playing the role of minivan mom for the godkids.
I'm always listening for you. You know how to reach me. I will always be here for you a.v.l.s.
With great love and greater respect for the honesty you live and the life you struggle to hard to hold onto.
zenhussy
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> no car. no car + work = no work. no work = no money. life = -money. + following = less money. no way to make +money...
>
> you leave people alone and they ship you off to shuffle the halls of United Fruit... looking at the life outside behind mesh bars. thankyou for your humble understanding of my bar room talk.
>
> bar room talk amongst, uohnh... im not sure.
>
> billy,
> work peyote
> sun the blonde out
>
> trigger trigger
> trigger
> trigger
>
> how dare you question me?
>
> fast speaking women,
> white eyes
>
> the meals were horrible, the group sessions pointless, the black crack of the intercom,
> i don't understand, why aren't you happy?
>
> you're on your own now
> you're on your own now
> you're on your own now.
>
> going up in smoke,
> and i've got no hope...
>
> thanks for the time out,
> i needed that, curse words and ill words deserve a short sharp shock.
>
> i like it,
> i like to be punished
>
> i've done, questionable
> things.
>
> thankyou.
>
> the voice
> of Montserrat Caballe.
Posted by noa on July 14, 2003, at 1:01:04
In reply to hospital fears, posted by yesac on July 13, 2003, at 16:19:20
The hospital I was at was known to be rather a lousy one--but it was the one connected with my HMO at the time. There were and are much better hospitals than that. I'm sorry for giving you the bad impression.
As much as I hated the hospital, I'm glad it was there. I needed just to be kept safe for a week until I could keep myself safe again. That is all it really did for me. But that was what I needed. And one nurse did encourage me to get into a support group, which I did, actually a therapy group, which became one of my lifelines after that. She also encouraged me to do some volunteer work which I did and that helped me a lot, too.
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