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Posted by Lamdage22 on January 5, 2018, at 11:21:18
Hey dr-bob friends,
i have this fear of heights where i think that i may lose control and jump down. Its a bit OCDish? The reason i say this is to see if others have it, too and how they handle it. Also just to connect.
Lamdage
Posted by baseball55 on January 5, 2018, at 18:28:14
In reply to Fear of heights: Afraid of losing control and jump, posted by Lamdage22 on January 5, 2018, at 11:21:18
If you've never been really suicidal, then it is a kind of OCD anxiety. I used to fear driving on major high-speed roads because I was afraid I'd drive into an embankment, but then I had once driven off a mountain road trying to commit suicide. Miraculously, I survived.
Posted by Lamdage22 on January 7, 2018, at 7:56:57
In reply to Re: Fear of heights: Afraid of losing control and jump, posted by baseball55 on January 5, 2018, at 18:28:14
How do you define really suicidal? I have not had any attemps.
> If you've never been really suicidal, then it is a kind of OCD anxiety. I used to fear driving on major high-speed roads because I was afraid I'd drive into an embankment, but then I had once driven off a mountain road trying to commit suicide. Miraculously, I survived.
Posted by baseball55 on January 7, 2018, at 19:17:25
In reply to Re: Fear of heights: Afraid of losing control and jump, posted by Lamdage22 on January 7, 2018, at 7:56:57
> How do you define really suicidal? I have not had any attemps.
>
> > If you've never been really suicidal, then it is a kind of OCD anxiety. I used to fear driving on major high-speed roads because I was afraid I'd drive into an embankment, but then I had once driven off a mountain road trying to commit suicide. Miraculously, I survived.
>
I guess I'd sort of respond by saying that if you don't know what it feels like, you probably haven't felt it. Really suicidal, for me, meant thinking about suicide all the time (not just - I wish I were dead - but, I need to kill myself), feeling complete despair and hopelessness that the feeling will never end, planning to commit suicide, getting the means to do so (in my case, opiates to overdose once, other methods, researching methods on line (yes, such sites exist)), and making outright attempts. But the body is hard to kill and, once an attempt has begun, the survival instinct kicks in and says pull back.This is why gun-owners are most likely to carry out "successful" suicides - no turning back (like when I took an overdose of oxycodone, then called 911), no element of chance (like when I drove over the side of a mountain.
Today, thanks to DBT and meds, I find I am much more able to control these urges. I recently had a period of several weeks, however, when they came back. What helped me hold on was that I now have a pair of cats from the same litter who have never been apart. If I had only one, I might just say, f**k it - somebody will take it. But with two, I really don't want them to be separated, which would almost certainly happen if I were to die.
Posted by Lamdage22 on January 11, 2018, at 6:33:03
In reply to Re: Fear of heights: Afraid of losing control and jump, posted by baseball55 on January 7, 2018, at 19:17:25
No you are right, i never had that!
Posted by rjlockhart37 on April 2, 2018, at 21:46:22
In reply to Fear of heights: Afraid of losing control and jump, posted by Lamdage22 on January 5, 2018, at 11:21:18
im the same, when i'm on a high level that has an opening where i could accidentally fall, im not joking but when im really high or something i kneel down to feel more in control, rather than just 2 feet, i've been prepping myself someday to do bungee, or skydiving, not silly ones, the real thing, base jumping....i would have so much adrenaline and norepinephrine in my system, already know ill have sky high levels of it.....i've done moderate bungee jumping, adrenaline made me clunch up and not enjoy jumping, it was more like emergency mode
Posted by Lamdage22 on April 19, 2019, at 7:08:15
In reply to Re: Fear of heights: Afraid of losing control and jump, posted by rjlockhart37 on April 2, 2018, at 21:46:22
Wow you really pushed yourself there. I wouldn't do that. I am scared in the second story of a house
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