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Posted by ghost on December 13, 2005, at 11:19:13
g@dd@mn fckng hell i typed a huuuuuuuuuuuuge long really awesomely expressive post and i accidentally shut down my browser instead of tabbing to another window.
it's lost now. lost lost lost lost lost lost lost. c@cks@cker.
so. wtf was i trying to type?
i had a revelation while typing, even. ive shut my therapist out of my mind. i dont want her in there any more. i don't like her there. i don't even really trust her there.
she brought up My Past at the very end of the session today. a good session where i talked a lot and she commented on that and i was in a good mood and she commented on that too. so wtf would you bring up My Past? that put me in a bad mood. so she tried to cheer me up by saying she was happy i was in a good mood but it was lost.
went from 2 wk visits to 3 wk visits. which is for the best. i wanted it to be longer, but didn't have the heart to tell her.
i stopped taking wellbutrin and abilify. i feel really good. i don't want to take so many drugs. i hardly remember to take them anyway. i remember my neurontin most of the time. i think i'm not having problems cuz the neurontin keeps my moods so level and in between and away from the extremes where i tend to have the problems. i hardly remember to take my real meds, let alone the psych meds. (real meds?)
i have a pdoc appt tomorrow. i have to tell her about the meds i guess. she's nice though. she better be okay with it. the T p@ssed me off today by saying "you'll talk to pdoc right? and you'll do what she says?"
uh, it's my body. i'll listen to ME. i don't have to do what doctors say, they don't know my body like i do.
trusting my body with other people gets you r@ped.
wtf? it's my body.
i can't believe i typed up such an awesome post and then lost it all.
it's not just t i've shut out of my head. it's people who are no good for me. like the drama queen guy with the r@pe pr0n. and the ex-love who'll never make me a priority in his life. i'm proud of those, though.
such an awesome post i typed. now i have no witty way to end this.
Posted by lynn971 on December 13, 2005, at 11:19:14
In reply to GRRRRRRRR *TRIGGER*, posted by ghost on December 12, 2005, at 19:35:14
Just wanted to give you a hug.
Posted by ghost on December 13, 2005, at 11:19:14
In reply to Re: ((((gost)))), posted by lynn971 on December 12, 2005, at 19:55:20
Posted by Phillipa on December 13, 2005, at 11:19:14
In reply to Re: ((((gost)))), posted by lynn971 on December 12, 2005, at 19:55:20
Ghost sure wish you could find it inside to retype at least part of that post. Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by ghost on December 13, 2005, at 11:19:14
In reply to Re: ((((gost)))) » lynn971, posted by Phillipa on December 12, 2005, at 20:12:34
Posted by jammerlich on December 13, 2005, at 12:13:22
In reply to GRRRRRRRR *TRIGGER*, posted by ghost on December 12, 2005, at 19:35:14
(((((ghost)))))
I agree with you completely. It's your body and YOU should be the ultimate decision maker about what happens to it. But sadly, our treatment providers don't always feel the same way.
That said, I feel like I should add a word of caution (my own stuff, so feel free to disregard). Be sure you understand what your T will do if your pdoc says continue the meds and you decide not to. I think it's only fair that you have ALL the information so you can make a truly informed decision.
Posted by fallsfall on December 13, 2005, at 22:21:28
In reply to GRRRRRRRR *TRIGGER*, posted by ghost on December 12, 2005, at 19:35:14
(((((Ghost)))))
Do you think the ice cream would stay frozen if I sent it to you since it is so cold outside?
You are fighting against something, I think. I'm not sure what. And you SAY that you feel fine, but you don't SOUND fine. You sound aggitated. Sort of "Don't touch me! Get away! I don't need your help! Leave me alone!" And that doesn't sound like you.
Please be careful, dear Ghost. You are important to me.
Posted by Phillipa on December 13, 2005, at 22:25:57
In reply to GRRRRRRRR *TRIGGER*, posted by ghost on December 12, 2005, at 19:35:14
Why didn't see bring up your past at the beginning of your session so you could discuss it? Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by muffled on December 13, 2005, at 22:35:30
In reply to GRRRRRRRR *TRIGGER*, posted by ghost on December 12, 2005, at 19:35:14
Hey Ghost,
Crazy times eh. Hope you doing ok. This place has been real hard lately. Falls said it good.
People say good stuff.
Yeah, the meds thing sucks.
They might be able to help you out over on the meds board as far as what to expect etc.
Anyhow, you take care ghost, I like you.
Muffled.
Posted by ghost on December 14, 2005, at 0:47:56
In reply to Re: GRRRRRRRR *TRIGGER* » ghost, posted by fallsfall on December 13, 2005, at 22:21:28
funny, i haven't even felt like ice cream. i'm bored with everything.
T asked me if i was making any decisions cuz i was bored, because it didn't seem like i was. see? she doesn't know me very well.
aggitated is a good word. that's kind of how i feel inside. but i'm putting up a pretty good front. i really don't want any help. i just want to get on with life.
thanks though. it helps.
ghost
Posted by ghost on December 14, 2005, at 0:48:42
In reply to Re: GRRRRRRRR *TRIGGER*, posted by muffled on December 13, 2005, at 22:35:30
> Anyhow, you take care ghost, I like you.Thanks. I like you too.
ghost
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