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Posted by fallsfall on January 28, 2004, at 7:37:07
A woman came into the library last night. I haven't seen her in years. She set off a set of memories. Lots of memories - back to when I was less than 2. So many things fit now. I know why I think I'm bad, and why I'm afraid of abandonment. I know why my dog is so comforting. I know why I always want to be the favorite. I know why, when I was sick at night when I was little, I wouldn't call out loudly enough for my mother to hear. I know many ways that my first therapist repeated events from when I was little.
My therapist is out of the office today. I paged him and talked to him on the phone this morning. I will see him tomorrow at 3. That is my time and he will be there. I wrote down notes about the memories. They are "put away" on the paper. I need to do things for the next 30 hours that don't include rehashing this over and over. I may not come back to Babble until after my appointment (i.e. Friday?).
I am safe and my therapist is "here".
Posted by Dinah on January 28, 2004, at 8:42:21
In reply to It fits, posted by fallsfall on January 28, 2004, at 7:37:07
I love those ah-hah moments when everything seems to fit together. Journaling is a great idea, because you can fit the pieces together so that they don't slip away. And then often I find that in the future, I have a whole new frame of reference. And I love aything that makes me less of a baffling mystery to myself. :)
Do a lot of self care, and I'm so glad that you feel like your therapist is there for you. Check in when you're ready.
Posted by Poet on January 28, 2004, at 9:47:26
In reply to It fits, posted by fallsfall on January 28, 2004, at 7:37:07
Fallsfall,
I'm so glad the pieces of your memory puzzle are coming together.
Writing it all down and saving talking about it until your therapy session is great, keep your mind on other things and come back to babble when you're ready.
Poet
Posted by tabitha on January 28, 2004, at 12:01:06
In reply to It fits, posted by fallsfall on January 28, 2004, at 7:37:07
That's a lot of insight to get so suddenly. No wonder you're so eager to discuss with your therapist. It's very hard for me to switch topics and attend to business when something so engrossing comes up, so I can understand that you'd be anxious about it. Putting it on paper and reassuring yourself that your therapist is 'here' sound like good coping tactics.
Posted by gardenergirl on January 28, 2004, at 15:31:53
In reply to Re: It fits » fallsfall, posted by tabitha on January 28, 2004, at 12:01:06
Great advice from the others. I congratulate you on handling it so well. I hope your session with your T goes well also. Take care!
gg
Posted by All Done on January 30, 2004, at 0:53:44
In reply to It fits, posted by fallsfall on January 28, 2004, at 7:37:07
> A woman came into the library last night. I haven't seen her in years. She set off a set of memories. Lots of memories - back to when I was less than 2. So many things fit now. I know why I think I'm bad, and why I'm afraid of abandonment. I know why my dog is so comforting. I know why I always want to be the favorite. I know why, when I was sick at night when I was little, I wouldn't call out loudly enough for my mother to hear. I know many ways that my first therapist repeated events from when I was little.
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> My therapist is out of the office today. I paged him and talked to him on the phone this morning. I will see him tomorrow at 3. That is my time and he will be there. I wrote down notes about the memories. They are "put away" on the paper. I need to do things for the next 30 hours that don't include rehashing this over and over. I may not come back to Babble until after my appointment (i.e. Friday?).
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> I am safe and my therapist is "here".fallsfall,
I hope everything went okay for you today. Hope to hear from you soon (well, when you're ready, of course).
(((fallsfall)))
All Done
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