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Posted by Christ_empowered on June 23, 2011, at 21:10:24
I'm not taking my Abilify right now, and I feel good. Perhaps even great. I am, however, a bit angry. Some of you may remember a relatively recent post about how I called up an ex-therapist and let him know I felt about his "services." It was cathartic, but now I want to do it again. He was out of the office when I called last time, so now I'd kind of like to actually talk to the man and see what he has to say.
I am getting kind of angry. I still sleep, my hallucinations are minimal (even with meds I get I low-level auditory hallucinations), and I'm not freaking out or anything.
I talked to a friend and she freaked out when I told her I wasn't on my medication. She wants me to re-start it ASAP. I just don't know...I mean, tranquilizers, really? I don't want to be dulled out and stupid all the time, and I don't want TD. I also don't like how popping the meds is like being a part of my own oppression. I mean, if I take the antipsychotic everyday, I'm basically saying: "Yes, I have a broken brain/brain disease and I need chemical restraints. I will voluntarily take these crappy pills because you, the psychiatric experts, are right. Thanks."
I mean, that's total BS.
What do you guys think?
Posted by jono_in_adelaide on June 24, 2011, at 1:07:43
In reply to go back on Abilify?, posted by Christ_empowered on June 23, 2011, at 21:10:24
"I mean, that's total BS. "
Well, none of us can know enough about your illness to answer that.
It might well be that all the psychiatrists have it wrong, but it is also possible that you are looking at things wrongly as well.
Not sure what you should do, but I'd stay in close touch with your doctor, if you do start to go downhill, you might lose the insight to realise it, and might need someone to tell you its time to go back on your pills.
Or, you might live happily for years without them.
Posted by zonked on June 24, 2011, at 10:39:36
In reply to go back on Abilify?, posted by Christ_empowered on June 23, 2011, at 21:10:24
> I'm not taking my Abilify right now, and I feel good. Perhaps even great. I am, however, a bit angry. Some of you may remember a relatively recent post about how I called up an ex-therapist and let him know I felt about his "services." It was cathartic, but now I want to do it again. He was out of the office when I called last time, so now I'd kind of like to actually talk to the man and see what he has to say.
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> I am getting kind of angry. I still sleep, my hallucinations are minimal (even with meds I get I low-level auditory hallucinations), and I'm not freaking out or anything.
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> I talked to a friend and she freaked out when I told her I wasn't on my medication. She wants me to re-start it ASAP. I just don't know...I mean, tranquilizers, really? I don't want to be dulled out and stupid all the time, and I don't want TD. I also don't like how popping the meds is like being a part of my own oppression. I mean, if I take the antipsychotic everyday, I'm basically saying: "Yes, I have a broken brain/brain disease and I need chemical restraints. I will voluntarily take these crappy pills because you, the psychiatric experts, are right. Thanks."
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> I mean, that's total BS.
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> What do you guys think?Ask your friend for an honest assessment of how you're doing based on some longer-term observation, not just what she thinks is right (which is what most people think - MI = stay on meds under any circumstances.)
If your psychotic symptoms are manageable (and due to the nature of psychosis, I would have someone else verify this) without APs, it's something to think carefully about.
Is anxiety a prominent symptom for you? I remember some of your posts - as much as I complain about public health clinics, it's not been difficult for me to get Ativan or Klonopin to manage my anxiety symptoms, even when I had *no* insurance at all and had to use the county system for the medically indigent. It makes me wonder what part of the country/continent you're in.
What do you think about using glyceine? I know you dig your supplements, perhaps that could help if you don't wanna take APs. I am making no recommendation here, just something that popped into my head.
Good luck CE! You are more knowledgeable than most, I have every bit of confidence you'll make the right decision.
-z
Posted by Phillipa on June 24, 2011, at 12:26:05
In reply to Re: go back on Abilify? » Christ_empowered, posted by zonked on June 24, 2011, at 10:39:36
CE true what the others say. Now would you agree that you and I have known and written for years? And the fact that now you are looking at continuing school and getting into the medical field. I do think since anger is again starting. Halt the progress and return to your abilify. Didn't you say you were stabalizing and that even your parents saw that in a visit? So as one of the very knowledgeable posters here think hard and know where you have been and then write your decision and you know how to reach me. Love Phillipa
Posted by floatingbridge on June 24, 2011, at 22:09:03
In reply to go back on Abilify?, posted by Christ_empowered on June 23, 2011, at 21:10:24
> I also don't like how popping the meds is like being a part of my own oppression. I mean, if I take the antipsychotic everyday, I'm basically saying: "Yes, I have a broken brain/brain disease and I need chemical restraints. I will voluntarily take these crappy pills because you, the psychiatric experts, are right. Thanks."
>CE, I don't see the above as the only way to think about taking meds. Do you experince sx with abilify? (I don't recall your maintenance dose.)
I don't think taking meds is a happy happy thing. I am very reluctant to restart any AD. You know that. But they can be a tool. I don't know :-/
Anger is a difficult emotion imo. I don't want you to medicate it away. Yet, you bring it up, and your powers of observation are pretty keen. So I do trust your own sense as someone above posted.
I think zonked gave some sound advice.
> I mean, that's total BS.
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> What do you guys think?
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