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Posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 11:53:45
I've been diagnosed at BP II.
I'll be hanging out w/ friends, having a great time, laughing, but underneath I'll just have this feeling of wanting to cry.
I'll be going on a beautiful drive and going down to the river feeling great, but underneath have this feeling of wanting to cry.
It feels like more of a physical feeling in my head, more than emotional.
Is this a possible tie between epilepsy and bipolar that i've read about?
I've noticed that all meds that lower my dopamine make me more depressed including antidepressants.
I'm going back to trileptal, been on it 2 times before. Too high of a dose made me stoic, quiet, emotionally dead. I'm hoping that this time with Provigil (works wonders), it'll be a different experience.
I also have horrible problems with derealization. To make this worse, I'm now working in grocery stores that seem to trigger confusion, derealization etc (the lighting seems to do this, epilepsy ties??)
I've tried all med combos, none seem to work. I'm thinking about saving a lot of money and going to the Amen clinic???
Any advice is much appreciated.
Regards,
Brian
Posted by sam K on January 17, 2009, at 12:59:58
In reply to Periods of sadness for no apparent reasons?????, posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 11:53:45
jesus man Ive seriously thought Ive been the only one that gets derealization from lights. Flouresent lights really mess/messed with me. Ever since I did lsd a long long time ago Ive been having this noticiably. It makes it dreamlike. Still does. I also get afterimages alot.
If I take antipsychotics i get messed up. Anything it seems with dopamine is really bad. But who knows. Anti convulsants seem to give me derealization.
And also I do also have an underlying sadness. I feel it in my eyes. Pressure. Like a dam keeping back water. I was hypnotized once and I just let all of that and talked about my dad and how I feel like he doesnt love me. After that hypnotism I felt soooo differnt than Ive ever felt in my entire life. It was like something happend to my body. An intense hangover feeling, gone beyond drained that lasted a while. I know it doesnt seem pleasant but I think it was good for me.
Its like my soul is sad. And I remember my doctor that was hypnotising me said "a sadness you will carry around with you, a compassion for others sad" something like that.
I have derealization everyday. But back when I was 14 I was diagnosed with Hppd because I had done the lsd... Which also triggered all the problems I have now. depression, anxiety.
Ill post some more later cya! get better
Posted by Justherself54 on January 17, 2009, at 13:10:43
In reply to Periods of sadness for no apparent reasons?????, posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 11:53:45
I have BP also. When I get the tears at the back of my eyes, along with the sadness or lack of joy is a signal to me that my depression is worsening. I too have a problem with lighting. If I'm anywhere around a light that is flickering, it makes me agitated. I have trouble with any type of sensory overload. It sucks, but I've had to learn some coping skills when I'm in overload mode.
Posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 13:13:37
In reply to Re: Periods of sadness for no apparent reasons?????, posted by Justherself54 on January 17, 2009, at 13:10:43
Yes, I think that a lot of it is sensory overload to me. I mean my mind is already racing, and all my focus is on my thoughts, so being out in public, my brain just can't catch up to the now. I think that it's the being behind in reality that is messing me up. About once a month, I'll have a great feeling when I am actually meshed into the present moment. But few and far between.
Brian
Posted by Phillipa on January 17, 2009, at 13:23:13
In reply to Re: Periods of sadness for no apparent reasons?????, posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 13:13:37
Happens to me too in large stores Walmart is the worst for me and large malls so prefer smaller stores. head that about florescent lighting also. Phillipa the lighting gives me anxiety and got to get out of there feelings. Thought I was the onl one?
Posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 13:28:02
In reply to Re: Periods of sadness for no apparent reasons?????, posted by Phillipa on January 17, 2009, at 13:23:13
Oh no, I've heard that about the lighting from many to most derealizers.
There are meds that make my DR go away (trileptal, lexapro, depakote, zyprexa). All the others cause DR.
The leading expert on DR (Dapne Simeon?) has had some success with lamictal+ssri.
I've heard it could be a temporal lobe problem. I've heard that Dr Amen recommends something to stablize the lobes before adding the antidepressant.
So who knows?
I might try to add lexapro after im stable on trileptal. Lexapro usually causes me hypomania and mixed states, but hopefully the trileptal could hold that.
i guess i'll just wear some sunglasses in all the stores I work in.
Brian
Posted by quintby on January 17, 2009, at 18:17:02
In reply to Periods of sadness for no apparent reasons?????, posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 11:53:45
Brian, you sound delusional, which could be a reaction to Provigil if you have a senstivity to it. It you have recents developed any skin rashs or mouth sores or the feeling you have something in your eye that you cannot wash out or difficulty pee/pain peeing, you MUST STOP taking Provigil immediately as you may have developed a condition known as Stevens-Johnson Syndrome, which in its severe form can threaten your life. Go to the ER if you have any of these symptoms and definitely stop taking Provigil regardless of how much it may help you. Your life could possibly be in dangerous if you keep taking it. You can look up the new warnings ordered by the FDA in Dec 2007 at FDA.gov.
Posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 19:18:07
In reply to Re: Periods of sadness for no apparent reasons????? » qbsbrown, posted by quintby on January 17, 2009, at 18:17:02
Actually i've never had a bad reaction to provigil. I think i just found out that it's the 5htp i have been taking the past 3 days, made me manic/hypomanic. Worked great at 100mgs, but took 200 this past day.
I'll keep an eye out for the syndrome.
Brian
Posted by Trans-Human on January 20, 2009, at 17:55:35
In reply to Re: Periods of sadness for no apparent reasons?????, posted by qbsbrown on January 17, 2009, at 19:18:07
There are many reasons to be sad.
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